a letter to you

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Dear you,

It was so lovely to grab my cell phone today and see your name flashing back at me. I wish your calling didn’t surprise me so. I sense that we have more in common than either of us know. I wish I knew you better. I wish we had a full history of memories, but I suppose it’s never too late to start creating them.

I was glad to hear the distantly familar timber of your voice. I am glad you called!

I hope that our paths cross very soon…

Much love,
*Ali

the truth

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I find that I have a really hard time telling the truth. This is not to say that I am a liar. Because I’m not. In fact, I’m a pretty crappy liar–you can see it in my eyes and I may even cry–but I have the most awful time speaking the truth.

Here’s an example. Twice over the past week I’ve been offered a promotion at work. Yahoo! You might think. But for some reason, each time I would hear myself accept the job I would feel a well of emotion rise into my chest. At first I thought it was because I was afraid of the commitment to a “title”, or the fear of the unknown responsibility, or the knowledge that I would be thrown into chaos, but when I examined it further, it turns out that I simply don’t want the job. I don’t work at my job because I want to organize an unorganized office. I work at my job because I believe in what we offer; what we teach. But it was the hardest damn thing for me to tell myself that I didn’t want the promotion. I couldn’t simply state the truth as I know it to be. “My heart is in teaching and not administration, but thank you for the offer and I appreciate your confidence in me.” It would have been that simple..because that is the truth.

I’m like a jungle cat. You can put me in a zoo (or in my case, an office) and I may seem to be tame (an office junkie), but the truth is, I’m wild and I have to follow my heart.

Hawaii Wedding

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Two weeks ago my friend Shannon got married…in Hawaii!

The trip was relaxing, the company was fun and the wedding was beautiful.

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Congratulations Shannon and Shawn!