hungry

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coke cccookie burger sourpkids For the past week I’ve been eating the worst food ever! I decided for a couple of days it was ok because of my birthday. But my birthday is now 5 days in the past and I’m still eating pure junk, fat, artery clogging, cellulite causing, acne inducing crap. (though tasty)
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no expectations

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Over the weekend I had an “un-birthday” party for myself. (My real birthday is thursday, and I heard it’s unlucky to have a party before your birthday, so I deemed it an un-birthday party)

I sent out (via evite) about 45 invites…and only a few responded “yay”. I spent the week wondering if I should cancel it, move it, or go ahead and have it. I felt sad, frustrated and mad &, of course, worried too much about it. I had let my expectations get too out of control and I thought that if a ton of people didn’t come that it meant it would suck.

Well! To make a long story longer, I threw the party anyway and I had a great, fabulous, sexy time. First, people (9 altogether) came to my apartment where I cooked some veggie lasagna and salad. Then we went to a club in Santa Monica called Zanzibar, where I proceeded to dance the night away! I haven’t danced like that (all night, all sweaty) for almost a year. And it was wonderful…

It just goes to show me that expectations are not reality. But I find it so hard to let them go. I’m the same way in relationships. I expect too much without knowing it, or even meaning to. No wonder I get disappointed.

My new thing is to do my very, very best to let go of expectation and just take what comes. Because that’s all there is…

But it’s so hard.

the stars say…

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Today may be one of those days when you feel like dancing down the street instead of walking, dear Gemini. Kick up your heals and have fun. See the beauty in the things around you and remember that there is a bluebird on your shoulder. Keep things light and fun and don’t be surprised if you find yourself daydreaming much more than usual. Communication should flow smoothly with others today although it may be more fanciful than serious.

How fun is this???

been gone fishin’

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Fishing for some answers that is…

After many tears and long conversations with my two best friends (Mom and Dad, awwww), I finally got up the courage to quit one of my jobs. It was a struggle, though.
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